So life is going...
This weekend was both good and horrible.
I got to see and hang out with some of my friends.
But I found out that the guy I am supposedly going to marry some day,
has done some things that I really don't agree with.
I knew he had done something, but I never would ask him what it was.
It really upset me.
It's also weird being at KCU.
Everyone there walks around singing.
I feel like if I do that, that I am boasting..
So no one really knows I can sing.
I guess thats my fault.
But truthfully, I can not stand when people sing every second of the day.
I love music and singing.
But theres a time and place for everything.
I also found out one of my best friends got drunk.
I really never thought they would.
But I guess people change over time.
I dont even know if we are really best friends anymore.
I feel like we are, but i dont think the feelings mutual.
I need to start working on austins lady gaga costume.
It's going to take me awhile and I have to have it done by Friday.
I have had a really hard time dealing with Joelettas death.
I wasn't really close to her at all when she died.
But death brings back old stored up memories that you forget even happened.
What if that had been one of my closer friends?
Wednesday, despite already being nervous about my piano class, I couldn't get my hands to stop shaking long enough to play a chord on the piano for my test.
That class stresses me out so bad.
Theres a test every time there is a class.
I'm so stressed and frazzled.
I had a fall break, but it was only two days.
I need something longer.
Like, oh i dont know, a year at disney seems nice.