Friday...Saturday??

Yesterday, being thursday, was an interesting day.
I woke up at like 7:45 and couldn't go back to sleep.
At 12 william asked me if I wanted to go eat at the chinese restaurant with him.
So I did, and then he came over and we watched Stepbrothers.
Then Casey came over to practice for the book club sit down thing we had to do.
Then he left and go Paige Fields, his girlfriend, and came back.
We decided to sing 4 songs, Landslide by Fleetwood mac, but the dixie chicks version, Daughters by John Mayer, Drops of Jupiter by train, and Ain't no sunshine by bill withers or some name like that.
Lucas then came over, and told me he could give me a ride to the movies that night.
Our drama class from last year had decided to go and see the Expendables with Oz at midnight.
William was obsessed with some site called chatroulette.
We got on there and sang for some guy from England, who said he now loves americans, and a boy from Norway who loves Green Day and Pink Floyd.
It was really neat.
The casey and I went to sing.
Apparently I was late, but I got there at 6.
ANYWAYS, we sang and got $10.25 in tips haha.
Then I went home, and waited for Lucas.
Casey was suppose to go with us, but wasn't allowed because some Druggy was stopping cars and robbing them up near his house. Crazy stuff.
Kaitlyn, Oz's daughter, told me he wasn't coming.
But he ended up showing up anyways, making me look like an idiot.
Not intentionally though.
Once we got to Cinema 10 in Ashland, Lucas calls and finds out Brian got pulled over for speeding.
Finally everyone got there.
It ended up being,
Lucas, William, Brennon, Justin, Janie, Nathaniel, Jordan, Michael, Matt, Oz, Moose, Brian, and I.
The movie was okay.
It had a ton of big name actors, but the only 2 good ones were only in the movie for like 5 minutes.
The camera angles were bad, and so was the CGI.
But it's not a bad movie.
We didn't get home till around 4.
And therefore I slept till 4 today.
School is getting closer, and dad still hasn't taught me to parallel park, therefore I cant drive to college.
I need to work on that this week.
Tanner failed this week. So that drops my confidence.
But im watching Ghost Adventures and going to bed.
We have to go to a scrimmage tomorrow, and then we are going to see Joseph and the Technicolor Dream Coat.



Added later..

so i've had several dreams where God has told me who i'm suppose to spend my life with.
The first time was in 8th grade.
I had a day dream during my science class, of a guy I had never met before, but i knew he was my husband.
A few weeks later, someone moved to our school who looked exactly like that guy, but younger of course.
It freaked me out so bad that I convinced myself he was ugly, and wouldn't let myself like him.
Then as time went on he became one of my friends, and I didn't have a dream or day dream or anything about him until my senior year.
In that dream, I was laying on a bed and all of the sudden everything went dark.
In white was written this is the man you are going to marry, and then it went to the same person who God had told me about earlier.
It totally freaked me out, and brought back the thoughts from 8th grade.
Now that I'm going off to college, I'm scared that this will never happen.
It's not that im doubting God in any way, but he can change his mind.
That's what I fear....God will change his mind and not put us together.
I want to tell him of all of this, but even thought hes a christian too, I fear he will think im making it up...
Or that i'm totally bonkers.
Or worse, he'll date me just because he feels God wants him to, not that he really loves me at all.
If it's God's will, it will happen.
But I guess i'm just not patient.
And I'm scared because this person and I are drifting apart.
And it seems no matter how hard I try, this person is pushing me away,,,not returning texts...etc.
I miss when we were close, and I could tell him anything and everything.
But ever sense a certain happening, its just all gone down hill..
Pray for me....

Night all,
Much love =]
Awiison