Blogapaloza=D

So hiddy =D
I'm really bored, and it's really late.
So I'm just going to blog.
Well tonight was suppose to be the peak of the Meteor Shower.
Sadly the clouds have overtaken my skies >_<
But I did get to see a few shooting stars, and on a good night I can see normal ones anytime.
So I'm not complaining.
One really cool thing: I was singing "When You Wish Upon A Star" and all of the sudden this beautiful shooting star streaks across the sky.
It was really neat and it make me laugh for awhile.

So if you were wondering, my obsession with Grey's Anatomy has gotten worse.
lol.
I'm now on season 3.
I CANNOT STOP WATCHING 0.o

For my brothers birthday dad took my brothers friends and I to see a DCI competition that was being broadcasted to the Huntington Mall Movie Theater.
It was really neat.
The Cadets had an awesome Angels Vs. Demons show where the band was split in to two halves and one side had white uniforms while the other had red.
It was super cool.
I had never seen a band with two different colored uniforms.
The Cavilers were really good as well.
They had quad players who played upside down, a drum major who conducted upside down, and several trumpet players who played upside down.
It was really neat.

But yeah.
Now IDk what to say.
So I think I'm going to go see if the clouds are gone.
If so I'll watch more stars.
If not I am going to bed =D
Good night
and
I Love You =D
Allison

I.Suck.

Yeah.....I do.
At pretty much anything and everything that has to do with life....in general.
Why does life have to suck so bad?
I mean my life isn't the worst life out there.
And to be honest I guess I'm sort of happy for the larger part of my life.
I am a christian, but sometimes it's so hard to have faith.
I've always told my mom and my brother that worrying is just a lack of faith.
Why ask God for something if you are going to go around worrying it will never get resolved?
But I guess I cannot take my own advice.
I have a friend who is going through a rough patch in her marriage.
It seems that divorce may be in the future, and so I have been trying my best to help her out.
But how can I do this?
Help her out?
I can't get a boyfriend.
I can't even talk to new guys.
I can't have a conversation with a guy.
First I worry about how to start the conversation.
Then I worry about what I would do after he replies.
Then I worry about whether or not I will creep him out by messaging him.
And this is all before I have even say hi.
I cannot do this on my own, and I've prayed for God to help me.
But it's still so hard not to sit around and worry and dwell on things.
God will help me in time.
There is no doubt in my mind that he will.
But sometimes when I ask, I can't tell if he's saying yes, wait awhile, or flat out no.
I need help, but I have no one to turn to.
Please Help me out =[

Love,
Allison

Goals

So my brother just entered his Sophomore year of high school.
He has the same teacher that I had for AP World History, and every year that teacher makes his classes come up with a personal goal list and a list of favorites.
Since I don't have my brothers paper of his favorites to find what favorites I would be using, I decided to at least do my goals list over.
I know I have my old goals list somewhere, and that I have done numerous things on that list.
If I find it I will be sure to post it.
But for now, here is my current Goals list.

1. graduate from college.
2. Make enough money to pay off my families debt.
3. Get a boyfriend.
4. Find someone who will watch the stars with me and not complain! haha.
5. lose more weight.
6. Write a good song.
7. learn to play guitar.
8. Work for Disney.
9. go to the Wizardry world of harry potter
10. Visit London, England.
11. Swim with a dolphin.
12. Visit Australia.
13. Be in a real movie.
14. Have my own CD.
15. Meet Johnny Depp.
16. Meet Stanley Tucci
17. Meet Emma Watson.
18. Own a horse.
19. Own a Scottish Terrier.
20. go to NYC.


I have more but I just can't think of them now!!!
But I promise to add to this list frequently or check off if I do them.

Much Love!
Allison

Love.

Love.
Something I am totally clueless about when it come down to it.
I have no concept of falling into it, being in it, or falling out of it.
Actually outside of my family, close friends, and God I do not believe I have ever been in "Love."
Throughout high school my main goal was to have a boyfriend.
I would cry and pray to God to send me someone.
When he didn't send someone, I would get over it and move on to the next guy I would cry and pray for.
I was horrible for liking guys, who I had no chance with, for months or even years.
Wasting my time on idiots or friends who were nothing more than that.
Once I graduated, I decided I needed to focus on college, and this went well my first semester.
I didn't care at all about having a boyfriend.
I didn't even think about it to tell the truth.
Then Christmas came along.
Why Christmas? I don't know.
But there is something about holidays that make me want to be loved.
And this sparks the whole "I need a boyfriend to hold my hand, hug me, cuddle with, watch movies with, etc" mindset.
So I've gone on now with no one.
And I was okay again, but then EVERYONE started getting engaged/married.
Going to weddings and not having a boyfriend really sucks because everyone looks at you and says "Oh when are you getting married?" Which I respond to with, "Well first I need to find a boy friend. That seems very important for the whole marriage process." Then I just laugh it off.
Going to disney world is also something that sparks the whole mindset even worse.
Disney world, aside from being my favorite place on earth and the place I want to get married, is one of the most romantic places ever.
Proposals happening, anniversaries being celebrated, honeymoons, weddings.
So much happiness.
I just want to share that with someone.
So my self-esteem is shot.
I hardly find a time where I am content with a given situation.
I waiting and praying for someone.

Patiently waiting,
Allison