I.Suck.

Yeah.....I do.
At pretty much anything and everything that has to do with life....in general.
Why does life have to suck so bad?
I mean my life isn't the worst life out there.
And to be honest I guess I'm sort of happy for the larger part of my life.
I am a christian, but sometimes it's so hard to have faith.
I've always told my mom and my brother that worrying is just a lack of faith.
Why ask God for something if you are going to go around worrying it will never get resolved?
But I guess I cannot take my own advice.
I have a friend who is going through a rough patch in her marriage.
It seems that divorce may be in the future, and so I have been trying my best to help her out.
But how can I do this?
Help her out?
I can't get a boyfriend.
I can't even talk to new guys.
I can't have a conversation with a guy.
First I worry about how to start the conversation.
Then I worry about what I would do after he replies.
Then I worry about whether or not I will creep him out by messaging him.
And this is all before I have even say hi.
I cannot do this on my own, and I've prayed for God to help me.
But it's still so hard not to sit around and worry and dwell on things.
God will help me in time.
There is no doubt in my mind that he will.
But sometimes when I ask, I can't tell if he's saying yes, wait awhile, or flat out no.
I need help, but I have no one to turn to.
Please Help me out =[

Love,
Allison