Where are you christmas?

Lately my parent have been talking about how we are low on money this year for Christmas.
This is due to my college payments, car payments etc.
Mom seems to be so worried about how much we have to spend.
We've even talked about just asking for one thing for Christmas instead of making a list like before.
Hearing this stuff bothers me.
What ever happened to celebrating Christmas?
In today's society it seems as if we worry so much about gifts, and money, and making everyone happy and getting
everyone exactly what they ask for. So, does anyone truly celebrate Christmas anymore?
I've been listening to Bing Crosby lately. He talks about sitting around the radio or piano
with the people you love, and just enjoying your time together.
Christmas is a time to remember Jesus's birthday and remembering him.
Sitting around a table eating turkey, baking cookies, writing letters to Santa Claus
looking at Christmas lights, making hot chocolate, decorating the tree, popping popcorn Nd watching
the 25 days of Christmas, and old movies. Singing carols, and if you can give presents, give them. If not
making presents suffice. It's about love. Christmas is about Jesus.
I love Christmas. I don't care about all of that. I just want to have a happy, fun Christmas.

Bahh

So Hey =]
Life is pretty boring at the moment.
It's almost christmas, and I am SO ready!!!
It cracks me up that its not even thanksgiving yet, and everyone has their christmas stuff out.
KMart had their christmas stuff up before halloween!!!
I think everyone is wanting christmas to get here fast this year!
We've been singing christmas music in choir this year since August!

So project Lady gaga was a success!
Austin looked amazing!

I'm pretty sure it is one of the best things I have ever made!
I turned Matt into Paparazzi and he followed Austin around the entire time.
It was amazing!

So I'm totally happy with the way the election turned out =]
Republicans now have control of the House =]]]]
It's about time!
Now maybe we can get something done!

Lately, I've been needing a guy.
Someone to talk to and get my spirits up =]
Anyone know anybody?

I beat fable 3.
It was a pretty good game.
But I totally messed up the kingdom! haha
So I started over =]

Well thats all for tonight.
Love and God Bless =]
Allison

So life is going...
This weekend was both good and horrible.
I got to see and hang out with some of my friends.
But I found out that the guy I am supposedly going to marry some day,
has done some things that I really don't agree with.
I knew he had done something, but I never would ask him what it was.
It really upset me.
It's also weird being at KCU.
Everyone there walks around singing.
I feel like if I do that, that I am boasting..
So no one really knows I can sing.
I guess thats my fault.
But truthfully, I can not stand when people sing every second of the day.
I love music and singing.
But theres a time and place for everything.
I also found out one of my best friends got drunk.
I really never thought they would.
But I guess people change over time.
I dont even know if we are really best friends anymore.
I feel like we are, but i dont think the feelings mutual.
I need to start working on austins lady gaga costume.
It's going to take me awhile and I have to have it done by Friday.
I have had a really hard time dealing with Joelettas death.
I wasn't really close to her at all when she died.
But death brings back old stored up memories that you forget even happened.
What if that had been one of my closer friends?
Wednesday, despite already being nervous about my piano class, I couldn't get my hands to stop shaking long enough to play a chord on the piano for my test.
That class stresses me out so bad.
Theres a test every time there is a class.
I'm so stressed and frazzled.
I had a fall break, but it was only two days.
I need something longer.
Like, oh i dont know, a year at disney seems nice.

Update.

So I haven't blogged in awhile.
And for good reason.
I've been really bogged down with work the past few weeks.
The first week of school was horrible for me.
Everything realistically was going ok.
But I was so upset, down, depressed, etc.
And I'm even commuting.
I hated my life.
Despite those facts, I made a friend named Lindsi.
She's pretty cool and i spend 90% of my free time with her.
My piano class is going pretty well, and choir is crazy!
My nerves tho, are driving me insane.
It's hard to sleep and all that stuff.
September fest was last weekend.
It was fun.
I got to see everyone again.
I really missed them...
I keep trying to make plans with my friends, but I don't think they want to.
I fear that there are several of my friends, who no longer want anything to do with me.
And it makes no sense at all.
They keep blowing me off.
They could just say they didnt want to and it would be over.
But instead they lead me on, as if everything is okay, and they want to hang out.
But then ditch.
I don't know, maybe its just me.
But seeing my old friends, makes me happy.
I miss them.
College feels like an alternate reality,
and high school is my real life.
I wondered for awhile if I needed to change majors.
If I should be a teacher or not.
Mom and dad say that I need to go into music some how.
They say my voice is too good to waste.
But I feel as if everyone here is better than me.
Or at least most of them.
I fear I'm not good enough.
But that's not new no is it?
ha.

But yeah....
I think I'm heading to the choir room now.
Much Love,
Awiison

College

So the schools great.
The teachers are awesome.
The people are really nice.
But I don't feel right.
It's like I'm not suppose to be there.
And I feel like God's not giving me an answer.
Am I suppose to be there?
If so I need a sign.
I don't want to go through a year of classes, if im not suppose to be there....
Im scared...
I don't want to fail.
I just want to stay here and get a job or something.
I just need answers.
And I need the knot in my stomach to go away..

Friday...Saturday??

Yesterday, being thursday, was an interesting day.
I woke up at like 7:45 and couldn't go back to sleep.
At 12 william asked me if I wanted to go eat at the chinese restaurant with him.
So I did, and then he came over and we watched Stepbrothers.
Then Casey came over to practice for the book club sit down thing we had to do.
Then he left and go Paige Fields, his girlfriend, and came back.
We decided to sing 4 songs, Landslide by Fleetwood mac, but the dixie chicks version, Daughters by John Mayer, Drops of Jupiter by train, and Ain't no sunshine by bill withers or some name like that.
Lucas then came over, and told me he could give me a ride to the movies that night.
Our drama class from last year had decided to go and see the Expendables with Oz at midnight.
William was obsessed with some site called chatroulette.
We got on there and sang for some guy from England, who said he now loves americans, and a boy from Norway who loves Green Day and Pink Floyd.
It was really neat.
The casey and I went to sing.
Apparently I was late, but I got there at 6.
ANYWAYS, we sang and got $10.25 in tips haha.
Then I went home, and waited for Lucas.
Casey was suppose to go with us, but wasn't allowed because some Druggy was stopping cars and robbing them up near his house. Crazy stuff.
Kaitlyn, Oz's daughter, told me he wasn't coming.
But he ended up showing up anyways, making me look like an idiot.
Not intentionally though.
Once we got to Cinema 10 in Ashland, Lucas calls and finds out Brian got pulled over for speeding.
Finally everyone got there.
It ended up being,
Lucas, William, Brennon, Justin, Janie, Nathaniel, Jordan, Michael, Matt, Oz, Moose, Brian, and I.
The movie was okay.
It had a ton of big name actors, but the only 2 good ones were only in the movie for like 5 minutes.
The camera angles were bad, and so was the CGI.
But it's not a bad movie.
We didn't get home till around 4.
And therefore I slept till 4 today.
School is getting closer, and dad still hasn't taught me to parallel park, therefore I cant drive to college.
I need to work on that this week.
Tanner failed this week. So that drops my confidence.
But im watching Ghost Adventures and going to bed.
We have to go to a scrimmage tomorrow, and then we are going to see Joseph and the Technicolor Dream Coat.



Added later..

so i've had several dreams where God has told me who i'm suppose to spend my life with.
The first time was in 8th grade.
I had a day dream during my science class, of a guy I had never met before, but i knew he was my husband.
A few weeks later, someone moved to our school who looked exactly like that guy, but younger of course.
It freaked me out so bad that I convinced myself he was ugly, and wouldn't let myself like him.
Then as time went on he became one of my friends, and I didn't have a dream or day dream or anything about him until my senior year.
In that dream, I was laying on a bed and all of the sudden everything went dark.
In white was written this is the man you are going to marry, and then it went to the same person who God had told me about earlier.
It totally freaked me out, and brought back the thoughts from 8th grade.
Now that I'm going off to college, I'm scared that this will never happen.
It's not that im doubting God in any way, but he can change his mind.
That's what I fear....God will change his mind and not put us together.
I want to tell him of all of this, but even thought hes a christian too, I fear he will think im making it up...
Or that i'm totally bonkers.
Or worse, he'll date me just because he feels God wants him to, not that he really loves me at all.
If it's God's will, it will happen.
But I guess i'm just not patient.
And I'm scared because this person and I are drifting apart.
And it seems no matter how hard I try, this person is pushing me away,,,not returning texts...etc.
I miss when we were close, and I could tell him anything and everything.
But ever sense a certain happening, its just all gone down hill..
Pray for me....

Night all,
Much love =]
Awiison

Its Wed-nes-Day

So hi.
Today was like every day.
I slept till like 3.
It was awesome.
haha.
I have a new obsession.
It's a show called Nip/Tuck.
It's really good, and I will probably spend my day watching this now on netflix.
Dad is convinced when I get married, I will get married at Disney World.
And I am not complaining =]
I would love to get married there.
Thats a dream.
Dad's came to the conclusion that Spider doesn't have seizures.
So I'm not sure what the heck is going on with her.

We've been looking on the disney store site.
Harlan Ellenshaw has been mentioned several times.
I met him on the Disney Cruise I went on when I was looking at the paintings.
He worked on Star Wars sets, and alice and wonderland, and tons of other movies.
I think thats awesome.

I went and saw Wendell, Jennifer, and Jerrica after youth group.
At youth we had cooked breakfast.
We learned how to make biscuits and gravy.
So I took them food.
We stayed and watched Americas got Talent with them.
It was really good.
Everyone need to pray for her.

Tomorrow Casey and I are going to sing for the book club.
It has to be all acoustic and mellow.

But im going to go watch some tv.
Night all
Awiison

Dead until dark...

Blah....
Today was fun.
I went to church, then ate at the chinese restaurant,and then went to Jimmy's to swim.
He then came over and we played Street Fighter 4 and watched Honey and Clover.
Which is an amazing Anime..... yeah im a dork.
Then, of course, at nine we watched True Blood =]
After that, matt took jimmy home, and heard counting coming from a bush in Jimmy's yard.
Matt and Jimmy are convinced it was a demon that jimmy believes has been at his house for a few weeks.
Interesting.
Once matt got home, I cleaned out the turtles tank for mom.
Matt and I played Buzz Lightyear Operation, and then went outside to watch the shooting stars.
Only 3 tonight.
I tried to get william to come over, but apparently I accidentally sent it to Whitley, and some guy prank called me.
Nothing ticks me off more than a prank call.
Idk they're just annoying.
I'm thinking of starting to read the Sookie Stackhouse novels.
Oh , JoJo got into some red liquid, and now all of her white, is pink.
Its really funny.
I'm really happy for Shane Dawson! He wont the Teens Choice Award for best Youtube Star =]]]
Oh yeah, and I interpreted a dream for Kaitlyn and her momma.
I love doing that =]
I'm getting pretty good.
Night
Awiison

Mhm,,,today

Well today was interesting.
At around 10 something whitley called.
She came and picked me up, and we went to Wal-Mart.
I helped her pick out Khryssy's wedding gifts, and then I got matts Birthday present for him.
Then we went to Long Johns or LJS, came home, and watched Rugrats.
Once she left, I went over to Wendell and Jennifer's to see how she was and deliver candy.
Then William and Lucas came over to help set up a scavenger hunt.
Lets just say the scavenger hunt never got finished.
William wanted to auto tune our voices instead.
So we did.
Several times.
haha....
Then we went into the woods, set up a little bit of the scavenger hunt, and then ended up playing the game of things, and then played Lips.
They ended up leaving and going to the movies.
It was kind of annoying that they didn't invite me to go.
But whatever.
It's cool.

It was cool to see my friends
I hadn't seen lucas since school let out.

But im done for now....
Bye.

The Guy...

So as a kid, I would always make these lists of what my "perfect guy" would possess.
So I decided today that that was what I was going to blog on today.
My Perfect Guy.
And I think its the perfect time because lists like these always are bias to the guy you are liking at the time.
At the moment, I don't like anyone =] So I can be completely honest with myself.
So My Perfect guy would have to:

Be a christian:
Religion is very important to me. If you're not a christian, then its really hard to have strong morals.
For example, not having sex before you're married. Or not getting drunk. Stuff like that.
Plus if I date someone whose not a christian, my parents would be angry! haha.

Be a Singer (or at least a decent one.):
I sing all the time. And one thing I CAN NOT STAND is if someone is off on songs.
And I don't mean singing in front of a crowd of people and they are off.
I mean like seriously singing with the radio and sounding off.
I can deal with this to an extent. But if I'm going to spend most of my time with him, it would get annoying.

Be good looking. (or at least to me):
I believe you can not truly like someone if you are not physically attracted to them.
Because seriously, would you want to kiss that?
Would you want your babies to look like that?
I don't think so..

Be self confident:
I think that a guy needs to be self confident, but not in a snobbish, arrogant way.
I don't have very much self confidence. So therefore I don't want a boy friend who has low self esteem as well.
I want him to be confident in himself, that way it can help me build mine.

Be childish, yet mature:
I want him to want to have fun.
To want to go to places like disney world or disney land.
To want to go to the movies and watch cartoons.
But at the same time I don't want him being immature.
I don't want him to be loud in restaurants, or embarrass me in public places.

Be dorky:
I want him to be smart.
But not just book smart.
I want him to know about music, and movies, and comic books.
I want him to know things I don't, so I can learn.
I want him to not care what others think of him.

Be a disney fan:
If you know me, you know I'm IN LOVE with disney.
Anything Disney.
Old movies, some tv shows and music, and definitely Disney World.
I've been to Disney world 5 times, and on a Disney Cruise 1 time.
I can't imagine planning a life with someone who doesn't love disney world.
Because they will be very unhappy when all our vacations are planned by disney.=]

Be travel ready:
I love to travel.
So far I have been to almost 10 countries.
And I do not plan to stop.
I want to travel!!
I still haven't been to all the 50 states, or england =]

Be caring:
If I am upset, I want him to want to make me feel better, because I would do the same.

Be helpful:
Doing house work and stuff is hard.
So I would want someone who would share the load.

Be Goofy:
I love nothing more than someone who can make me laugh.
If you can make me laugh, you've got me hooked.

Be a music lover:
If you don't love music, I really don't know how a relationship could work out with me.
I live and breath music.
And no I don't mean " hey yeah I love music. I love heavy metal but I hate country."
Yeah. I get that a lot.
I want someone who doesn't care the genre.
Just that the music is good.

Be Happy:
I understand that no one is happy all the time.
But just someone whose not always down on themselves.
Some who generally wants to be happy.

Yeah I know. The Perfect Guy apparently doesn't exist.
But I really don't feel like I'm asking for much.
Just a good guy.
Someone to love me.
And I know it's not a one way street.
And I would do my best to help in a relationship.
This is just my point of view.
But I really do believe he's out there.
And he may not posses all of these traits.
But I'm not going to settle for just anything.

=]

Love ya!
Awiison.

What I want from me.

I want to loose all this weight.
I feel like its just holding me back, and making me unhappy.
I feel self conscious all of the time, and around new people I feel like they are judging me because of my weight.
I want straighter teeth.
I feel as if people from Kentucky are stereotyped as having bad teeth.
Having gaps in my teeth make me feel like a stereotypical, hick.
I want to be a stronger Christian.
I feel like every time I get closer to God, the temptations of the world get worse.
And for some odd reason I give in.
I want to be closer to God, but for some reason I keep getting sucked back into the world.
I want to be brave.
I feel like I am constantly worrying about everything.
I fear death, college, change, commitment, driving, certain animals, the dark, ghosts and other paranormal beings, sharp objects, heights, and mostly everything else.
I want to be happy.
Every time I am remotely happy, something comes along to bring me down.
I can't sit around by myself for long or I start thinking, and everything I think about makes me sad.
I want to be smart.
Apparently I am smart, but I have no self confidence.
I feel like everything I think is right, is wrong.
Even when I end up being right.
I've always been around people smarter than me.
So I felt intimidated, and therefore would never ask questions.
So I never learned what I didn't understand right off the bat.
I want a boyfriend.
I'm tired of not feeling loved.
My family loves me, but its not the same as having a boyfriend.
I want to be hugged, kissed, and loved by someone.
I want someone to hear me sing, and give me a break.
So I can get enough money to help my family.
Because Mom and Dad work so hard as teachers, yet don't get paid enough.
I just want to give back to them.
I want to own my own recording agency.
I want people to want me to help.
I'm tired of helping and then getting screwed over.
I feel like my entire life I've done nothing but try to please others, yet getting nothing but hated and overlooked in return.
I'm tired of people using me!
Using me to help people out, then not choosing me.
Using me to make the choir look good, yet yelling at me, and choosing someone worse than me to run things.
Using me to do anything! and not giving me something in return.
I love helping people, but I hate being unappreciated for it.
I want to have drive to do these things.
I want to stop being lazy and do something with my life.

Life at the Moment.

I do not understand why I feel I must blog at the latest possible time.
But oh well. No one really reads this blog, so I guess I can post whenever I want.
So to update you on my license...... well it's still non-existant.
Dad was suppose to teach me to parallel park this weekend.
Saturday dad hit 1000K on his nike walking thing, so we went to huntington to celebrate.
Then Sunday was church, and Gattiland for the Sunday school.
So the weekend is now over. And I still have no clue how to parallel park.
This is crucial seeing as I can't pass the test if I can't parallel park.
I think my mamaw Annie is getting nervous that I won't have my license when I start commuting to KCU.
Which does make sense seeing as that would be totally illegal lol.
But I really hope I can get it thursday or friday.

Gattiland was fun.
I won 363 tickets.
Matt, Ben, and I decided to combined our tickets and win a stuffed thing for the sunday school room.
Which has become a tradition with Ratatouille and Dark Spiderman.
The two other prizes now get to share their room with Clumsy Smurf =]
Thank you Stephanie for the identification haha.
I also finally got a giraffe silly band.

I now have a giraffe, a shooting star, a cross, a star, and a dove on my arm.
I think I'm beginning to have my own little silly band collection.
Of course this doesn't compare to the countless children who have silly bands all the way to their elbows.
But I guess I have a healthy collection.

I am now the teacher for the smaller kids at youth group.
I'm suppose to be making "Big" Ben a cardboard car.
Try explaining to a 3 year old that something ins't really a car, but it is a car.
I'm sure I totally confused him.
But at that age, I guess it doesn't really matter. They forget everything.
Ben told me he was to "big" to be in my class.
I tried to explain to him though he is "big" he isn't old enough and has to learn a lot more about Jesus before he can go to the other class.
I don't think he understood this.
But again they usually forget.
But I have learned that the raising of a child, and the mental capacity of a child shows most when around a child of opposite raising.
Another kid came to youth group and was in my class.
He was Ben's age, and I guess I just expected him to understand more, like Ben, and like my cousin Andrew had at the age.
But he was so much harder to reach than them.
This made me wonder if I wanted to go into child psychology.
Then I remembered I can only take so much of screaming children.
And decided Music Business was a good choice.
Until I get married and have kids, I guess Ben and Kam will be my entertainment.

It's so strange.
School starts tomorrow in Lawrence County.
It is really weird that I don't have to go to school tomorrow.
So I guess I will sleep in tomorrow.
Mom wants me to clean.
So hopefully I wont sleep to long.

But I guess I will get spider, and try to go to sleep.
Night all.
Love,
Awiison

Thinking of You Cover.

Summer.

So this summer has been pretty boring, and unproductive.
Well other than the fact that I've started driving again,
and signed up for college at KCU.
I really need to get my license.
Dad just hasn't taught me to parallel park yet.
>_<
None of my friends have really tried to make any plans with me.
It's always a comment on facebook that says
"Oh lets make plans"
so I say...
"Okay let me know when!"
And they say
"Okay! Some time soon"
And thats all you hear....
So yeah...
My room has been messed up since the beginning of summer.
And for some reason I just can't get myself to clean it.
I'm so Lazy.
I need a life.
And friends who contact me.

I was going to help the band.
I went in and ran sectionals with kaitlynn.
But the next week they gave someone else the job.
I feel appreciated.
Thanks Lawrence County Band.
You love me oh so much.....
yeah.

Summer.

Someone please Save us...

So I've been working on getting ready for college.
Which isn't very hard.
Im commuting.
But despite that, Im scared out of my mind.
I don't know if this is what God really wants me to do.
I have such a hard time deciphering what God's trying to tell me, and what I'm telling myself.
I want to just start working at a record company, and skip college.
Im so terrified.
I tried for the music program today.
He said I was a good singer, and that I'm probably getting private lessons.
But Im so terrified.
I know I keep saying that but that's all thats on my mind.
I can't get over it.
I can't be happy.
I'm just so scared.
Hep me.....

Imagination..

For the past few months since I saw you last, you've intruded my dreams.
These thoughts of you flood my mind, and though I try to swim away, you seem to catch me in your current.
I find myself wanting to break free, gasping for breathe, yet swimming further and further out to sea.
I long to feel the way I did then.
To feel your arms around me, to hear your voice, to look into your eyes.
All of these things force me to long for you.
These dreams make me sleep longer, because the thought of waking up, makes me crazy.
Yet I wonder to myself, if these thoughts are of you, as you are, or the you I want you to be.
Am I longing for this make believe version of you?
I know part of you exists.
I remember vividly the way you hand feels in mine.
The tightness in my stomach when you'd glance at me.
And the way it felt when you held me tight.
You are a gentlemen, but the rest of the you I imagine, is exactly that.... my imagination.
To flood my mind with thoughts of you and I together, would be a torment.
Because I am not stupid, and I know that these ideas are only lies.
I pray to God nearly every night for you.
Not for him to bring you to me, but that maybe you'd come to him.
I know that we will never be together,
but I do know that I love you.
Maybe not in the sense of passionate love, but as a friend, I love you.
I fear for you life after in the next, and I fear that once you're gone.... you're gone.
I miss you and I love you.
Awiison.

Camp....2

So i'm awake.
I packed all my stuff.
And now I have to haul it all out to my car so I can move it again.
But I'm totally okay with moving stuff now.
Last night was ridiculous.
My room mate went to see if we had people sharing our bathroom.
And we did.
And she stayed over there till 12:30 something.
They were singing and stuff.
Every girl here sounds exactly the same.
I'm glad I didn't do vocals this year.
But I guess if you're using it for the Lord, it doesn't matter if you're really good.
Or whatever.
It just really annoyed me.
And I wanted to sing with them too.
But I felt like I was intruding if I went over there,
because I wasn't invited by my room mate.
I don't know.
I guess I'm use to people in Kentucky who are like,
Come on sissy, come right in and pop yourself a squat.
Where you are always invited in.
Not everyone is like that I guess.
So hopefully, my room mate today will be really nice and stuff.
I prayed about it last night,
So I know the Lord will provide.
I really want to room with Shelby, my friend from last year.
But God knows what he's doing.
Welp,
I'm going to go start putting things in the car.
Much Love,
Awiison

Camp.....

So we had to come to campus early because dad is a chaperone.
Matt and I have to stay on campus with him.
So they put me in a dorm room that's not mine...
And I have to pack up all my stuff again in the morning,
put it in my car,
and then wait to move it to the other dorm.
It seems like a hassle to me.
But I guess they know what they are doing.
My temporary room mate is nice.
Kinda quiet though.
I'm super tired.
There were a ton of people here tonight to talk to,
but instead I just sat with my little brother and played games on the mac.
It's not that I'm anti-social....
Idk why I just can't approach people and make conversation.
I mean I guess I could if I wanted,
But I guess I just kinda want people to come up to me first.
I'm a nice person.
I like people.
I guess I just don't like people I don't know.
Wel I don't think it's that.
I really don't know why I am the way I am.
But I am.
This makes me sound like a mean person.
Which I swear I am not.
And I'm very outgoing...
just not around people I don't know very well.
Anyways...
I think I am going to lay down.
Good night all.
Love,
Awiison

Yesterday.

So we ended up going to see Eclipse.

And I have to admit, it wasn't horrible.

The Acting has gotten way better since the first movie.

But Kristen Stewart still gets on my nerves.

Maybe by the next movie she'll be enjoyable to watch....lets hope.

But edward was cuter in this movie, jacob of course was hot, but that's nothing new.

And my favorite still is Jasper. He was

my favorite in the book series as well, which I read before the movie was even thought of.

They did leave some stuff out, nothing too important.

And I remember crying during this book several times, but I wasn't moved at all during the movie. So idk what they did differently.

So if I had to rank the characters from best to worst on their acting it would be : Jasper, Alice, Jacob, Emmett, Carlisle, Rosalie, Esme, Edward, and Bella. Those are just the main characters. I think the people in the background, like Billy and Charlie were casted great.

But enough of the Twilight fan girl whose hiding inside me.

I've been wanting to write a song.

I keep getting good ideas, and then messing them up.

Like I'll think too deeply into the song and then the original meaning gets lost somewhere.

I feel pressured to only write christian songs, and sometimes my songs come out as love songs for a guy and I have to change it around the make it a christian song. I mean I love God, but sometimes my songs are about guys in my life or people in my life, and I feel really pressured to only write those songs.

I've also been wanting to get guitar lessons.

But all of my friends who play guitar are too busy to teach me.

So I've attempted to teach myself. This hasn't been to successful.

Camp electric is this coming week. I leave friday for it.

It's my last year of being a student. I've gone all 3 years.

So maybe next year I'll be a intern or something.

Instead of doing advanced vocals this year, I'm doing intermediate sound.

I hope it helps =]. And I hope I get to meet more singers as well.

It's always so hectic the first few days because you're t

rying to make friends and have fun, and sometimes that's really hard.

My friend Rachel who was my roommate last year, isn't coming this year.

That's a real bummer, because we had so much fun.

So hopefully I'll meet someone like her again, and have fun.

Meeting your roommate is scary too.

Because, what if you don't get along?

That would suck really bad.

I also worry about not bein

g able to save my family seats too.

I like watching concerts with my dad and brother.

This is matts first year, and dads been a chaperone with me every year.

It's been hard saving him seats, so it will be even harder with matt.

I guess I need to stop worrying and just go with the flow.

But if you know me at all, you know I get worried easily.

So I totally hate being cooped up in the house.

Lately I've noticed that I have been obsessively watching youtube videos.

Since all of my friends have their own lives separated from mine.

Therefore I have caught myself talking about youtubers as if they were my friends.

It's really awkward.

I need a life....and fast!

Because this is just getting ridiculous!

I almost updated you on something you don't even know about.

Okay so the other day I get a call from my brothers friend, and on of my flute girls, that she had rescued a cat and wanted to know if we wanted it.

Apparently, they were driving down the road next to KFC, and saw her in the middle of the road.

No one had offered to pick her up, and she was dodging cars.

So of course we said yes, and we adopted Jo-Jo.

She's a little calico cat, whose no older than a few months.

Well, introducing Jo into the house, was no easy task.

We got her, I'm thinking 4 weeks ago.

Our oldest cat duchess, that is her to the left, she warmed up to Jo fairly fast, bu

t that should be expected from a 14 year old cat, whose already had to deal with being introduced to a cat and a dog.

After a few days, Duchess

was already grooming Jo, and playing around with her.

But my cat spider, whose use to being the baby ((she's the black one)) has not taken to kindly to being introduced to a new kitten. Believe me, the hissing and fit throwing has been way out of hand lately.

But yesterday I caught her actually grooming Jo! She's still hissing at her, but she's

getting a lot

better! This is a huge improvement from her sulking in my bedroom which she thinks is hers! It was great, I'd walk in my room and get hissed at for being there.

She's such a baby!

But this is Jo to the left.. She's a feisty little thing.

It's good having a baby in the house.

But on that note I will say Au Revoir.

And Much love

Awiison

lazy day

So I'm just sitting around watching Drake and Josh re-runs.

Since school let out, everything has just been boring.

But dad said he's probably going to take us to see Eclipse.

I hope it's better than the other two.

The books are good, but the movies just are not up to par.

I'll do a review when I get home.

So life sucks. I really have no one to talk to, or call me, or anything. It's not fun.

I really have nothing to talk about so I'll just go.

Love,

Awiison

Yay a blog!

So hello world!

I'm so excited to start blogging again!

I use to blog on a site called opendiary.com under the name pinkyramone.

But I decided to change things up and start blogging as myself =]

So who am I ?

Well my name is Allison Hammond, or as my little cousin who has trouble with L's says, Awiison.

I live in a small town in Kentucky called Louisa.....don't feel bad if you've never heard of it, most people haven't =].

It's a cute town, but with limited possibilities .

So I usually hang out in Huntington.

My parents Bill and Deana Hammond gave birth to me on February 20, 1992.

I have one sibling, and his name is Matt.

I love animals, and I have 3 cats, 1 dog, and 2 turtles.

I'll elaborate on them later.

When the school year starts, I will be commuting to KCU in Grayson, KY to get a major in Music Business.

I love to sing, and my family has a singing group dating to before I was born, called the singing hayes family.

I am a christian, but i'm very open minded.

I love to go to concerts, moshing is fun =]

So since this is a blog to get to know me im going to list some of my favorite things.

Movies:

V for Vendetta.

Aladdin.

Nightmare Before Christmas.

Toy Story (1,2,and 3)

Wall-E.

Rent.

Chicago.

Star Wars.

Hercules.

Hotrod.

Zombie Land.

and many more.

Music:

Relient K.

Hawk Nelson.

FF5.

David Crowder Band.

Aerosmith.

The Ramones.

The Beatles.

Toby Mac.

Fireflight.

Alex Day.

Frank Sinatra.

Adam Lambert.

Adele.

And musicals.

and many more.

Places:

Walt Disney World.

Pullman Square.

The Huntington Mall.

Rome, Italy.

New Orleans, LA.

Foods:

Chili Fries.

Hot Wings.

Steaks.

Lays BBQ chips.

Drinks:

Diet Coke.

Water.

Blue Gatorade.

Arnold Palmers.

And any kind of slushies.

TV Shows:

Supernatural.

Six Feet Under.

Dexter.

True Blood.

Family Guy.

King of the Hill.

Dr. Who.

Hey Arnold.

The Office.

Rugrats All Grown Up.

Games:

MW2 .

Pokemon (all).

Silent Hill (all).

Clock Tower 3.

Fable( 1 and 2)

Disney Scene it.

Sims 3. ( Though I have every Sims game until sims 2)

pretty much anything fun.

Random Facts:

I love taking pictures.

I'm a complete dork... I love superheroes.

My favorite Animal is a giraffe,, followed up by elephants.

I drive a sage chevy cobalt 2009.

I like shows that quote other shows/movies/books/etc.

I'm obsessed with Youtube and BBCA.

Want to know more?

Just ask.

But for now I think I'll be signing off =]

Please Comment,, I love meeting new people!